Friday, April 04, 2008

April 4, 1968

April 4, 1968. I was in Miss Moe's 3rd grade classroom. She was a really good teacher; my favorite in elementary school. Beautiful brunette hair done in a classic 1960's "flip." The girls in my class wore cute little mini-skirts or dresses. I don't remember if it was an official or unofficial dress code, but girls did NOT wear pants. I wore little skirts with attached underpants for modesty. My older cousin was in High School by then; it would have been her first year there. I remember picking her up at the High School and seeing the girls in their A-line dresses and flats with their hair in the ubiquitous "flip" and the boys in their sherbet colored button down shirts.

It was a Thursday. I don't remember it particularly. We probably began the day the same way we always did -- with the pledge of allegiance and the Star-Spangled Banner. This is the post-Madelyn Murray O'Hair era; there was not prayer or even a moment of silence. And there were black people in my classes. I didn't know any other time or any other way. I remember in particular my friend Herman. We shared classes first through fourth grades and our dads were good friends. I didn't know a time when Herman and I would have been separated; when we would have been in different classes or different schools. I didn't know that there was a time where my dad and his dad would have not been friends.

LBJ had just announced that he would not be running for president in the upcoming election. He was a man run down by the strife in the country; strife about Vietnam -- strife swirling around race relations. His decision to not run was not one made lightly nor was it a "giving up." In fact, his decision rejuvenated him. He had decided to be bold; to do bold things during his remaining months. He had begun working on a speech about the Civil Rights Act.

1968 was an momentous year for me -- it started with the second and ended with last season of Star Trek. All my life I have loved Star Trek. But life in 1968 was not all about strange new worlds. There was violence in our world Americans were involved in Vietnam. Every night I would hear Huntley and Brinkley tell us how many young men had died that day in Vietnam. It was my "normal" -- I grew up listening to these reports of war. 1968 saw the Tet Offensive and the Battle of Saigon. Later in that year, my Grandfather would die -- on December 21. Christmas was never quite the same after that. On Christmas day, we heard the book of Genesis read from outer space, as Apollo 8 circled the moon.

But months earlier on April 4, at 8:01 am Eastern time, Apollo 6 was the rocket we were all watching. After the tragedy of Apollo 1, unmanned capsules were sent up -- two of them and Apollo 6 was the second. In an odd twist of fate, for several years I had my office within mere feet of the Apollo 6 capsule.

However, it was a trajectory of a different sort that caused world to skew on it's axis. Not a rocket, it was a small piece of metal fired from a 30 ought 6 deer hunting rifle that caused change in the world.

Ten hours after the Apollo 6 lifted off, at 6:01 pm, James Earl Ray (allegedly) shot Martin Luther King, Jr. at the Lorraine Hotel in Memphis, Tennessee. King was running behind schedule; he was originally to have left Memphis the day before, but his plane had been grounded for a while by a bomb threat. He had just shaved with Magic Shave Powder and was getting ready for the evening, talking about dinner and enjoying the companionship of his friends. The bullet entered his baby smooth, lightly scented right cheek, traveled down his spinal column and lodged in his shoulder. An act of violence, a violation of his life, King was a man of peace. This was a man of integrity; one who followed Jesus; one who subscribed to nonviolent acts of civil disobedience. His last words were something to the effect, "Ben make sure you play Take My Hand, Precious Lord in the meeting tonight. Play it real pretty."

In the days that followed there were riots in over 125 American towns and cities. Primary to these were the riots in Washington, Baltimore, Louisville and Chicago. There were hundreds of of stores looted and burned. It is estimated that almost $400 million dollars were lost (in today's dollars) to the looting and burning. There was even a shootout between the Black Panthers and the Oakland police on April 6. I don't remember the violence and the riots. I do remember the national day of mourning and his funeral in Atlanta. LBJ signed the Civil Rights Act on April 11, 1968 without giving his Civil Rights speech that he had worked so hard on. The assassination of MLK took the wind out of his sails.

There are times I wonder what the world would be like if Martin Luther King Jr. had not been assassinated. I think about King's nonviolence -- his "turn the other cheek" attitude and I think of his freshly shaved cheek ravaged by an assassin's bullet. I think of his last speech:
Well, I don't know what will happen now. We've got some difficult days ahead. But it doesn't matter with me now. Because I've been to the mountaintop. And I don't mind. Like anybody, I would like to live a long life. Longevity has its place. But I'm not concerned about that now. I just want to do God's will. And He's allowed me to go up to the mountain. And I've looked over. And I've seen the promised land. I may not get there with you. But I want you to know tonight, that we, as a people, will get to the promised land. And I'm happy, tonight. I'm not worried about anything. I'm not fearing any man. Mine eyes have seen the glory of the coming of the Lord.
I think of Ralph David Abernathy holding his friend's head murmuring, "Martin, it's all right. Don't worry. This is Ralph. This is Ralph." I think of the song, "Take my hand, Precious Lord, Lead me on, let me stand, I am tired, I am weak, I am worn; Through the storm, through the night, Lead me on to the light." I think of a man who just wants to do God's will.

I think of a President who said that week, "I ask every citizen to reject the blind violence that has taken Dr. King who lived by non-violence." I think of my Dad and his friend, who happened to be black. I think of a little white girl who didn't know of a world where little black boys couldn't eat with little white girls. I hope we have come far. We still have far to go. There are still storms; there are still fears in the night. As a people I do believe we will see the promised land. As a people of God, I do believe we can live in nonviolence together if we pray and ask to be led to the light. I do believe.

Theremin Diagram Take 5



This is getting big. Really big. I was going to add a section for an explanation of Inductors, Capacitors, Resistors, FETs and so forth. I suppose they will get their own document. I believe I am going to use a Clapp Fixed Oscillator and a series tuned Clapp Oscillator for the Variable Frequency Oscillator. Well, that's today's idea. And I added my next thing to build -- I labeled it a "Doo-Ma-Hickey."

Theremin Diagram Take 4



I've added another wave tracing to better illustrate what happens when you add two sine waves of differing frequencies. I've added a basic explanation of what an electronic oscillator is -- two preliminary diagrams of a fixed oscillator (I may break these down further) and a very preliminary diagram of a variable oscillator. This circuit I've selected gives a very beautiful sine wave; but it's also difficult to work with. I added the antenna to the wrong spot; that will have to be fixed. However I may have to go back to the Hartley oscillator.

And near the middle, I've started collecting "piece-y parts." A 100k resistor, a matching capacitor, an Op Amp and a pair of coils (inductors). These are for illustrative purposes ONLY and do not represent the actual piece-y parts that I will be using.

This diagram is evolving the way it is because I am trying to explain all this to a 11 and 14 year old by breaking it down to it's smallest components.... More later.

Thursday, April 03, 2008

Theremin Diagram Take 3



I added a few things yesterday. I added an actual wave tracing of what the mixed signal will look like. I realized I needed a mixer (probably actually a discriminator and other stuffs) after I get the volume signal. I am going to explore oscillator options today...

Wednesday, April 02, 2008

Two Pictures for Today


The Theremin diagram expanded. I added some text to it -- and a few more pictures. Isn't it pretty? The LH and I are trying to decide how to build the oscillators and such. There are many ways -- from tubes to transistors to ICs.



Johnny and our midnight visitor, which we call "Midnight June." Yes, I can see why the LH thought Johnny was outside. Can you?

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

Preliminary Theremin Design

So, before I drop mega bucks on a Moog Theremin, I think we will build one. The youngest is intrigued by the idea -- it might be a good daddy/kid project that might actually morph into a Science Fair project.

I am (of course) concerned with design. Not only should it sound good, it should LOOK good. Or at least entertaining. I am taking Oloryn's suggestion at using a Budgie trophy (of which we have a dozen or more) for the pitch antenna, and rickety old end table for a stand, a film reel for a volume antenna and a wooden jewelry box for the circuit board. I get this:



You must admit, it is entertaining looking. I think we will have to solder/weld a longer antenna on the Budgie's head. We shall see. I'm designing the circuit board now to etch -- in Photoshop, of course. Goody! We get to play with acid! Or perhaps we should build on a breadboard first, get the design right and then etch a board....

Other thingys on my list (to find in the basement):
Capacitors, Resistors, Potentiometers, Semi-Conductors, Chokes, IC sockets, breadboard and whatnot. I think maybe I should build something that just squeaks alittle first. The idea of having the Budgie Trophies "sing" amuses me.

A simplified diagram of how a Theremin works:

Wesley Memorial UMC in SL

Gavin visited the church in SL yesterday -- at 3:00 am! (Actually, I guess that was EARLY today.) I (of course) wasn't there -- I was in bed, asleep. However, I'm glad he went. The build is pretty cool right now. I see all the little boo-boos -- like a panel in which I have the wrong texture, but all in all, it's shaping up nicely.

He didn't visit the meetinghouse out back, though. Here's some pictures. This is the exterior. The inital concept was to have it look rather like Epworth rectory (the original one that burned) but I drifted away from that a bit. When we have an entire island (Aldersgate Island, of course), I will build something more historically accurate.



These are two snapshots of the interior. The first shows the loft with what I consider the prayer area. It has a place to kneel for solitary prayer and a circle around a bowl of candles for group prayer. I want to add a box where a person could place prayer requests -- it just takes time!



This second interior area is viewable from the prayer loft -- and contains our big screen TV. We hope to get the stream from GC2008 viewable from here -- so that we can watch it in community (even if you can't leave home) and engage in dialog about the issues.



I am in-world once a week for sure -- Mondays noon Eastern or 9:00 SL time. I have been leading a Lectionary Bible Study for a couple of months at this time in the Koinonia space. We haven't done any official meetings at Wesley Memorial -- we are still working on the concept. I also plan this week to be at the Wednesday night service at Koinonia. If you want to see the build, drop me an email or comment here. I'd love to talk with you.

Notes: John the Methodist started me thinking about all this, btw, with a posting he did about communion. I had explored Second Life and decided it was too complicated, but after his posting, started looking at this seriously as an new expression of church. And secondly, I am limiting my time in-world. This too easily can become an addiction -- and I am deliberately limiting myself so that it does NOT. And interesting concept, as many of the people in world are struggling with various forms of addiction. More about that later.

staying up way late

the loving husband is fascinated by the idea of a theremin. we have found schematics and we have lots of the widgies and do-ma-hickies that we need in the basement. yeah, the widgies and do-ma-hickies have real names and numbers. and we have them. i feel a project coming on and it's one that will require a soldering iron. whoo hoo!

what to use for a case? (here's where i come in.) a baby-doll head? nah -- been done. vacuum tubes that glow and a lucite box? lots of extraneous l.e.d.s? getting interesting ... a knife box? i think i will scrounge for something. what shall the look be? sleek and mod or edwardian steam-punk antique? and think of what we can use for antennas! the bowling trophy -- a candlestick -- antique grillwork? this is going to be fun!

Sunday, March 30, 2008

Friday, March 28, 2008

Theological Question of the Day

Entropy has been studying the Sumerians and (of course) their study turned to beer, as the Sumerians have been honored with the invention of that tasty beverage. She said that the nutritional value in a beer makes it like "liquid bread." Then she got quiet and asked, "Mama, if we used beer for communion, would it be the BODY or the BLOOD?"

Good question. What do you think?

Johnny Cat, Cat in Black



The other night, the loving husband asked, "Why is Johnny outside?" Well, he wasn't. It was another cat that looked very much like Johnny, especially in the dark. Now we have a regular Midnight Visitor -- a little female who looks a lot like Johnny, even down to the little patch of white on her chest. Her patch is larger, her tail is fluffier and she's smaller. I think we will call her June Cat. I think she has a home, but they put her out for the night. She's come around for the last three nights. We will see what develops....

Thursday, March 27, 2008

As I sit with the flu....

I am remodeling the SL church. It looked like this:

Nice, but bland.

I am trying to get it to look like this (Lovely Lane Chapel at Epworth by the Sea):


Currently, it looks like this:


I think the steeple turned out well, even if I did it in wood shingles instead of verdigris copper. I did add a little Carpenter Gothic touch with a bracket directly off the photo I took last year. I am working on windows and siding today -- trying to get the textures right. The roofline of the narthex needs to be lowered and I need a pair of doors with a Gothic Arch. I'm having fun....

Flu Kitteh

Humorous Pictures
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Jack Sparrow Goes Green

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Tuesday Bullets

  • This flu in our area is really vicious. I've been sick for quite a while (seems like a lo-o-o-ong time.) I think our congregation started to pass it around before Christmas and that almost every member of the congregation has had a taste of it. It's put a few in the hospital; one or two in Intensive care. I've also a friend of a friend who has died of it -- he was 38 years old. He felt like he was coming down with something; ignored it for a day or two; went to work in the cold. By the time he went to the hospital, it was too late.
  • It seems too soon for Easter to be over already. What to do with the rest of the spring? Odd.
  • The yellow season is starting. Pollen is falling everywhere and the pine trees are a fixin' to bust open and let out their flood of pollen. It's the pine pollen that's so invasive. Everything will be covered with a fine yellow grit. Unless you have seen it, it's pretty hard to believe.
  • I need to list more books. Since I've been sick, I've slacked off. I want to continue on the house stuff-reduction. I would like to get rid of about half of what we own right now. It's just slow going.
  • And the weight reduction is slow too -- karate when you have the flu is just not do-able. I've decided to NOT eat any more Girl Scout cookies -- I did the oatmeal thing this morning. Tomorrow will be my first day back at karate in two weeks....
  • Johnny cat is amusing. He decided he was a big bumblebee. He keeps nibbling on the Easter lilies. He licks the nectar off and gets Easter lily pollen all over his face. It really shows up on all that black fur. Then he sticks his head into another bloom. He's pollinating the Easter lilies -- Just like a big black feline bumblebee. I do love to watch him explore his world.
  • I'm doing some architectural changed to the church in Second Life. I'll post pics when I'm finished.
  • Major errands today. The 8th grade orchestra concert is tonight and last night (after 10:00 pm) Chaos' bow broke. Yes, the $795 bow. She finished practicing with the cheap bow I purchased for a backup ($19.95, fiberglass). It sounded ... Ok. Even I can tell the difference between the good bow and the cheapo bow. So, I'm off to the violin shop to get an emergency bow repair ... It somehow reminds me of the Loving Husband's front tooth disintegrating late the night before Easter -- when he had to play the trombone for worship. I fixed the tooth with superglue -- I don't dare use superglue on the bow.

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Easter Sunday

The time of the cups is passed --
I have drunk the cup of Elijah -- His time is come and gone
And I want to know if truth will penetrate my soul
As the truth of His being has intensified my longing.

I have drunk the cup of our last meal -- Dark and sweet was the wine
He fed us with affliction, he slaked our thirst with abandonment
Bitter was the betrayal of one who loved Him.
His skin purpled with rage as he bent over to kiss.

I have drunk the cup in the garden -- it tasted of gall
A deep dark drought. The will of God!
It tasted of ashes -- Harsh medicine
For a creation overwhelmed with brokenness.

I have drunk the cup of the cross -- the blood and tears
Misery and suffering streamed out and
Ran down the rough wood. I gathered
It in the cup of my flesh as the blood stained my hands.

I have drunk the cup of sorrows -- the cup weightless
Strange was its’ color and
Filled with vapor that evanesced into a melancholy nothingness
It reeked with a miasma of the grave.

For three days I drank nothing -- for three days it were if I were dead
It was a fast, yet the time passed slowly
Never had a Sabbath existed with such conflicting tensions

Yet

Today
On Sunday, I taste the cup of holiness
The cup of salvation is lifted up and I drink deeply of it.
The cup overflows with light and
It fills the void in my soul
I lift my heart in thanksgiving to the God who gave it
Precious was the night of cups, the day of sorrows
Precious in the sight of God is the death of His faithful son
Yet more precious still is the life
For through His pain can we begin to be healed,
Through His sacrifice can we be made pure and
Through His rising we can be made complete.
Hallelujah! Come Lord Jesus!

Friday, March 21, 2008

Good Friday

It is Friday
And I stand at the foot of the cross.

Nothing can be said, nothing can be done.
Action is futile – hebel.
I can hold the other's hands and weep, but I cannot be comforted.

It is Friday
And I stand at the foot of the cross.

The air is heavy still with waiting and longing.
Waiting for the inevitable, longing for the impossible.
Can this cup pass from me?
I look around me – all the colors are muted.
Dusty browns and grays – Cold and metallic.
Rolling black clouds cover the brilliant blue of the sky
As my soul is occluded by pain.
All that remains is the red of the blood
Running down the weathered wood of the cross.

It is Friday
And I stand at the foot of the cross.

I reach out and touch the raised grain of the wood.
It is rough against my fingertips.
The pong of unwashed wool and bodies crowds my nose.
I smell fear, pain, death. I taste it at the back of my throat.
I hear the labored breathing from the cross.
Death is near.

It is Friday
And I stand at the foot of the cross.

Remember Him!
Remember Him as the silver cord is severed, as the golden bowl is broken.
Remember Him as the pitcher is shattered at the spring and the wheel broken at the well.
Remember Him as the dust returns to the ground it came from and
His spirit returns to the God who gave it.

It is Friday
And I stand at the foot of the cross.

Notes:
I wrote this when I was in the discipline of doing imaginative prayer. After beginning prayer and doing the getting centered exercise, I imagined what it would be to experience what Mary the mother did at the foot of the cross. This was before Mel Gibson's movie.
The images at the end of the poem are not some sort a New-Aged freaky thing -- as a reader once emailed me. They are directly from Scripture:

Ecc 12:1-7
Remember also your Creator in the days of your youth, before the evil days come, and the years draw nigh, when you will say, "I have no pleasure in them";
before the sun and the light and the moon and the stars are darkened and the clouds return after the rain; the day when the keepers of the house tremble, and the strong men are bent, and the grinders cease because they are few, and those that look through the windows are dimmed, and the doors on the street are shut; when the sound of the grinding is low, and one rises up at the voice of a bird, and all the daughters of song are brought low; they are afraid also of what is high, and terrors are in the way; the almond tree blossoms, the grasshopper drags itself along and desire fails; because man goes to his eternal home, and the mourners go about the streets; before the silver cord is snapped, or the golden bowl is broken, or the pitcher is broken at the fountain, or the wheel broken at the cistern, and the dust returns to the earth as it was, and the spirit returns to God who gave it.
A beautiful passage, poetic. And one to dwell within on this Good Friday. Blessings.

Thursday, March 20, 2008

Nerd God

I am a Nerd God

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The Loving Husband? A Slightly Dorky Nerd God. Hoo ya!

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Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Tuesday, Museday

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I have the flu and am on various and sundry medications. It makes for interesting conversations and dreams. I've been involved with a few conversations about the inspiration of scripture. We Christians are truly a "people of the Book." It is no doubt a powerful document -- I was reading a book recently that compared it to a "Holy Hand Grenade" -- this Book has the power to blow all our preconceptions apart at the seams.

I think most Christians would agree that the Bible, the witness as contained by the Old and New Testaments, is God-breathed. In 2 Tim 3.16-17 we read: "All scripture is given by inspiration of God [theopneustos], and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness: that the man of God may be perfect, thoroughly furnished unto all good works." I like the translation "God-breathed." Some like the word "inspiration." Theopneustos is translated in the Vulgate with the Latin divinitus inspirata ("divinely breathed into"), but some modern English translations opt for "God-breathed" (NIV) or "breathed out by God" (ESV) and avoid inspiration altogether, since its connotation, unlike its Latin root, leans toward breathing in instead of breathing out. Or maybe we should see this as both an "in-breathing" and "out-breathing?" Perhaps we then are tending to split hairs....

I don't get horribly involved with discussions about the inspiration of scripture. For a lot of people, this discussion is their "jumping off point" for theological debates. For me, not so much. I get more into discussions about, "well, Jesus said X and told us to do Y. How well are we doing?" I take scripture very seriously. It is my norma normans or "norming norm" (to use the words of Richard Hays.) It is the lens by which I view all my waking moments. In other words, I suppose my theology is more informed by my praxis.

In the UMC,our official position is elaborated as thus:
United Methodists share with other Christians the conviction that Scripture is the primary source and criterion for Christian doctrine. Through Scripture the living Christ meets us in the experience of redeeming grace. We are convinced that Jesus Christ is the living Word of God in our midst whom we trust in life and death.

The biblical authors, illumined by the Holy Spirit, bear witness that in Christ the world is reconciled to God. The Bible bears authentic testimony to God's self-disclosure in the life, death, and resurrection of Jesus Christ as well as in God's work of creation, in the pilgrimage of Israel, and in the Holy Spirit's ongoing activity in human history.

As we open our minds and hearts to the Word of God through the words of human beings inspired by the Holy Spirit, faith is born and nourished, our understanding is deepened, and the possibilities for transforming the world become apparent to us.


I like this. No arguments about what it IS -- just a simple statement, beautifully worded, about what it DOES. 'Nough said.

Monday, March 17, 2008

It's been a long time since I had a kitten....

So long that I had forgotten how playful and destructive they can be. I'm posting this using a very old computer (slow too ... can't keep up with my typing. I watch the letters appear one at a time. So distracting...) The reason I'm posting this using an ancient computer? The kitten decided to chew on the end of my charger for the MacBook and I didn't notice -- until it started to smoke and spark little flames. Now I have a shorted out charger and a dead battery on the MacBook. A replacement charger is on order.

He also likes to carry stuff around with him. Right now, he's chewing on a potholder he fetched out of the kitchen. It must smell good to him. He's also fond of dirty socks, washclothes, various and sundry stick-like objects (pencils!) and will just carry around with him most anything that he can pick up or drag after himself. I follow him around like a large benevolant God-like entity, trying to make sure that he doesn't hurt himself. On occasion, I just let him learn his lessons the hard way: don't lick the hot-sauce bottle, it will burn your tongue. Don't get to close to the grumpy old lady cat; she will clean your clock.

I can suppose God can feel this way: why would those silly human want to do x? I'll just let them learn the lesson the hard way....

Saturday, March 15, 2008

Atlanta Storms


The damage from the tornadoes that ripped through Atlanta in the last couple of days is reaching $200 million dollars. Downtown Atlanta including the CNN Center , Centennial Park, and the Georgia Dome were heavily damaged. The mayor has declared a state of emergency. The Georgia Dome was so damaged that the SECC will finish their play at Georgia Tech's Alexander Memorial Coliseum. Many people were injured, but so far no reported fatalities in Atlanta, although these storms have caused fatalities in other areas.

Chaos had intended to attend MoMoCon and she and her friend made it downtown today -- the website reported that the convention was still open. She made it OK, but new storms came through the area and they were sent to the basement -- and waited out the storm in the basement of Ga Tech's student center.

Here's video from the Weather Channel.

Friday, March 14, 2008

Friday Bullets



  • I have a few friend who keep sending me email via their iPhone. I don't have an iPhone and I will admit to the sin of envy. I really think the "virus" that would display a cracked iPhone screen with the sound of breaking glass is sort of cool....
  • I've had a disappointment this week. It is a struggle to not succumb to this disappointment; I repeat to myself the words given to Dame Julian -- "All will be well; all will be well and all manner of thing will be well." It is a thing I truly believe -- yet I still process the disappointment.
  • I have managed to schedule the family into a right pickle. Two kids need to be in two different places at the same time; Chaos is playing the Cello in the school system's Festival; Entropy is to be selling GS Cookies. Then we all have Karate. The next morning Chaos has Festival from 7:15 am to 1:00 pm, then wants to go to MoMoCon the rest of the day. She's going to be exhausted. Thankfully, Entropy and I aren't quite so busy...
  • I'm still wondering how they are going to fit the "Cello Coffin" onto the school bus. I insisted on the hard case this morning; that Cello costs as much (or more) than my first car. I'm not going to have it damaged in transit. It's actually kinda funny to watch Chaos roll the Cello Coffin behind her with a fully loaded backpack on her back and other various and assorted bags tied to her body.
  • I feel that I feed the cats continually. They fight; they hiss; they eat. They fight; they hiss; they eat. I pull Johnny fur out of Doodle's claws... They fight; they hiss; they eat. I'm just a Cat Cop.
  • I had a friend from RL come visit my Second Life church. That was cool. I've probably done enough SL for this week, though. I think I'll go back to my other "comfort activity"....
  • Watching HBO's "In Treatment." Powerful stuff and just as facinating to watch as "Intervention" on A&E. I believe the fact I like these programs says as much about me as anything.
  • I could do with a retreat; but probably won't get one. I'm going to have to go back to my Theology of Space and revisit -- I'm going to have to make my own space: a "Hermitage" as it were.


The Cello Coffin is like the black one right behind the hardshell red one. It really is coffin shaped. It's getting quite beat up too -- I'm told that is "cool." Ooooo.... I need to get her a skeleton hand to "peek out" of the coffin when it's zipped open.... Hmm... I wonder where I can get such a thing?

Theological Question of the Day

Jesus was a tecton, a builder. He probably worked with wood as a carpenter. Today on home improvement shows, we are told to measure twice, cut once. If Jesus cut a piece of wood too short, could he make it longer?

Discuss among yourselves.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Interesting places


  • Those in hospice care are usually not mobile -- there is no way for them to leave their room or bed and encounter the world. They don't have many opportunities to interact with the world. In Second Life, there is now a place for them to go -- The Healing Hands Hospice center.
  • Also, if you are a SL resident, you now have the opportunity to get a real live person to help you with your taxes at the H & R Block Party.
  • And my husband and I have been theatre-goers for a long time, including the Georgia Shakespeare Festival. Here is the SL Globe theatre, for those who wish to get their theatre fix.
  • There is a small group of us building a Methodist church. The picture is the church as it exists today. (You may note that there is no room for parking -- wait! No one here has cars!) We are continuing to build and discuss what Methodist involvement might mean in SL. We have, of course, started a blog.
  • If you are interested in knowing more, or if you have an avatar in SL, just drop me a comment or email. We are looking to add a couple of people to the projects on the West Coast, Australia and other areas around the world.
I am no longer my own, but yours.
Put met to what you will, rank me with whom you will;
put me to doing, put me to suffering.
Let me be employed by you or laid aside by you,
enabled for you or brought low by you.
Let me be full, let me be empty.
Let me have all things, let me have nothing.
I freely and heartily yield all things
to your pleasure and disposal.
And now, O glorious and blessed God,
Father, Son, and Holy Spirit,
you are mine, and I am yours. So be it.
And the covenant which I have made on earth,
let it be ratified in heaven.
Amen.

Friday, March 07, 2008

Friday Bullets

Humorous Pictures
Enter the ICHC online Poker Cats Contest!

  • I'm sure that's what my cats thought of the kids, too.
  • Old lady kitty is getting ... older. She's so very frail. Not keeping food down, losing weight. But still Alpha Kitty - there is black Johnny fur stuck in her claws every single day.
  • Johnny is dense. He doesn't learn that Alpha Cat is mean. I'm also having the dickens of a time teaching him to come when called. Usually it means food -- and usually he's hungry, but the neurons are just not firing. Time and patience will help. And Greenies.
  • Tuesday I go before the Board of Ordained Ministry. I'm not really stressed -- and I'm not stressed about being not stressed. I may go shopping for a new outfit, though.
  • Still making progress on the house. Several more drawers organized; things washed and either put away, given away or made ready to sell. I'm going to put eBay stuff back on after the Board interview. I didn't think this process would take so long; at my current rate of speed it will be another year before it's all done.
  • Karate is going well -- I haven't lost lots of weight, but I can tell the difference in my stamina. It's a good thing.
  • Chaos has made it into all Advanced Placement classes for High School. It will be more work, but also will be more challenging. I'm proud of her!
  • I'm enjoying Second Life more that I thought I would. There is a small group of us getting ready to build a Methodist Chapel modeled after some famous one -- either Wesley's Chapel or New Room Bristol. I'm also helping John re-organize his blog for a fresh start in October -- new pictures and materials. I've actually put dozens of hours into it. If anyone has any ideas of helping John publicize it, let me know and I'll pass it on to Rev. Wesley.
  • It's raining (yeah!) and I'm feeling sinus pressure.

Thursday, March 06, 2008

John Wesley is Blogging Again

He's so very confused ... he thinks it's still August 1736. I imagine he was in a sort of time-warp where he lost several month, eh, years, uh, centuries.

You will find his musings here, interspersed with other interesting and historical tidbits.

In fact, I believe that Mr. Wesley will be starting that fate-filled year of 1735 all over again, starting on October 17, 2008 -- so that the October 17, 2008 entry will actually be the October 17, 1735 entry -- the day that he began his trip on the Simmonds to Georgia. The entries will continue apace until that point, but the editors of aforesaid blog have found MUCH interesting information, including the full Diary of John Wesley without all the juicy part being edited out.

Therefore, major restructuring will be occuring. Shortly.

Wednesday, March 05, 2008

Prayer for Peace

Dearest Lord,
Lead me from death to life,
Lead me from falsehood to truth,
Lead me from despair to hope,
Lead me from fear to trust,
Lead me from hate to love,
Lead me from war to peace,

Let Peace fill me
Let Peace fill my heart,
Let Peace fill my home,
Let Peace fill the church,
Let Peace fill our world.
Amen.

This Amuses Me

As an avid eBayer, this amuses me. How many times have I received an item "not as described?" Heh.
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Tuesday, March 04, 2008

Mystery Quote

And I quote:

I should rejoice (so little ambitious am I to be at the head of any sect or party) if the very name might never be mentioned more, but be buried in eternal oblivion. But if that cannot be, at least let those who will use it, know the meaning of the word they use. Let us not always be fighting in the dark. Come, and let us look one another in the face. And perhaps some of you who hate what I am called, may love what I am by the grace of God; or rather, what "I follow after, if that I may apprehend that for which also I am apprehended of Christ Jesus."

Any guesses?

That's right! John Wesley!
The name he wished buried? Methodist!

I really like the next part -- Let us not always be fighting in the dark. Come, and let us look one another in the face. And perhaps some of you who hate what I am called, may love what I am by the grace of God.

As we move to General Conference, I pray that all those gathered will look each other in the face and love what each other are made into by the Grace of God.

Friday, February 29, 2008

My First Political Posting Ever

I discovered today (watching Tyra Banks) that Huckabee hates carrots. Bush hates broccoli. Coincidence? Or something deeper and darker?

Inquiring minds want to know.

Friday Bullets

  • I sat down this morning with my daily routine -- something from the Bible, something from a book of theology (usually pretty heavy stuff), prayer and again I'm sniffling and headache-y and the theology stuff just slid right off.
  • I wonder how much of the sniffing and sneezing and headache-y is from the rapid and sudden shifts in temperature we've been having. It's been very cold the last few days, but hasn't seemed that cold because the air is so dry. Then it will warm up a little and the humidity will rise and it will actually seem colder. My skin is dry; the insides of my nose is dry. (Yeah, I know, complain complain.) The weather affects me sometimes so very deeply, I don't think I'm altogether aware of it. I'm sure it affects others as well.
  • The girls have been dragging in the morning -- usually just a few minutes late, but earlier this week, they were 15 minutes late getting ready for school. It's gotten better -- Chaos was only about 6 minutes late this morning; Entropy about 7. It is getting better -- but we are still working on getting systems in place so that we can cope.
  • I'm going to go get them the book "7 Habits of Highly Effective Teens." I like Covey's take on things and I've read the first few pages of this book -- I found it amusing and entertaining. Maybe it will help ... maybe not.
  • I've been looking for a book for days. I remember reading it. I remembered that the author's name began with a "Ke," that it was "The something Self." I remembered that it was a "stages of life" book, like Erik Erikson and James Fowler, with a twist of Winnicott thrown in for fun, but heck if I could remember more.... I found it! Yeah! It's Robert Kegan's book "The Evolving Self." I don't think I still have a copy -- time to look for it at a used bookstore or Amazon.
  • I just took about 16 cubic feet of books off the shelves in the living room to list on Amazon. Pounds and pounds of books.
  • I sometimes get discouraged that things don't happen fast enough -- but I realized today that I've come a long way. The shelves are getting more manageable. I don't think that I'm progressing in Karate -- but then I realized that at the beginning of the year, I did about 10 crunches in 2 minutes (pitiful, I know). I now can do 25 -- it's getting better. I believe one day I'll do the 50 crunches required. Even though I'm not losing weight at this like I would like, I am getting in better shape. My shape is still round but it's not quite as round as it was....
Update: I took the belt test tonight and I'm now a yellow belt! Woo hoo!

Thursday, February 28, 2008

Roses and compost

In the garbage, I see a rose
In the rose, I see the garbage,
Everything is in transformation,
Even permanence is impermanent.
-- Thich Nhat Hanh, "Present Moment, Wonderful Moment: Mindfullness Verses for Everyday Living"

But so have I seen a Rose newly springing from the clefts of its hood, and at first it was fair as the Morning, and full with the dew of Heaven, as a Lambs fleece; but when a ruder breath had forced open its virgin modesty, and dismantled its too youthful and unripe retirements, it began to put on a darknesse, and to decline its softnesse, and the symptomes of a sickly age; it bowed the head, and broke its stalk, and at night having lost some of its leaves, and all of its beauty, it fell into the portion of weeds and outworn faces.
-- Jeremy Taylor, "Holy Dying" (1651 -- A parallel book to his 1650 "Holy Living." This Christian devotional book greatly influenced John Wesley's teachings of Holiness of Heart and Life.)

The Rose.

How fair is the Rose! what a beautiful flower!
The glory of April and May:
But the leaves are beginning to fade in an hour,
And they wither and die in a day.

Yet the Rose has one powerful virtue to boast,
Above all the flowers of the field!
When its leaves are all dead and fine colours are lost,
Still how sweet a perfume it will yield!

So frail is the youth and the beauty of man,
Though they bloom and look gay like the Rose;
But all our fond care to preserve them is vain,
Time kills them as fast as he goes.

Then I’ll not be proud of my youth and my beauty,
Since both of them wither and fade;
But gain a good name by well doing my duty:
This will scent like a Rose when I’m dead.
-- Isaac Watts, "Divine and Moral Songs" written around 1700 or so.

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

There is a solitude of space

There is a solitude of space

a solitude of sea

a solitude of death, but these Society shall be

Compared with that profounder site,

that polar privacy,

a soul admitted to itself,

Finite Infinity.

-- Emily Dickenson

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Actually, I'm not being antisocial



I'm just feeling "flu-ish." I am heartedly getting tired of catching every single bug that comes my way. I've taken a couple of days of rest and feeling a smidge better. Tomorrow is a little busier, but I'm not going to push it.

I know, this was so last week

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Friday, February 22, 2008

Friday Bullets

  • I stayed up too late (2:00 am) doing my two different eighth grade projects. (Poetry and Simple Machines.) Middle school is difficult for all of us -- the school day runs 9:30 am to 4:15 pm. The kids don't get home until 4:30 at the earliest. Dinner is at 7:00 on the nights we are home, karate at 7:30 twice weekly, choir at 7:00, music lessons at 6:00. Then the homework! Next year Chaos will be at school from 7:30 to 2:15, Entropy will have the hours 9:30 to 4:15. So the stress will be a little better for Chaos, probably worse on the Mommy who has to make sure all things get done.
  • We are all coming down with something -- upset tummies, sore throats, runny noses. They are home today, drinking tea, eating rice and candied ginger slices. I swear my eyes are not tracking together. So today is a day of rest and moving slowly. (Note: the staying up to 2:00 am was for naught -- the kid stayed home.)
  • To tackle the decluttering today, I've decided to do a couple of drawers (one at a time.) Dump out the contents on the drawer on the table and dispose of all items -- keep, donate, throw away. I may even take pictures.... Decluttering, just like a diet or a budget, is a continual and ongoing process. It's not that you can't slack off for a couple of days, but it is a life decision and not a band-aid of some sort. It has to become habit and a way of thinking about the world.

Morning Prayer -- St. Francis of Assisi, Brother Sun, Sister Moon

Most high, all-powerful, all good, Lord!

All praise is yours, all glory, all honor

And all blessing.



To vou alone, Most High, do they belong.

No mortal lips are worthy

To pronounce your name.



All praise be yours, my Lord, through all that you have made,

And first my lord Brother Sun,

Who brings the day; and light you give to us through him.



How beautiful is he, how radiant in all his splendor!

Of you, Most High, he bears the likeness.



All praise be yours, my Lord, through Sister Moon and Stars;

In the heavens you have made them, bright

And precious and fair.



All praise be yours, my Lord, through Brothers Wind and Air,

And fair and stormy, all the weather's moods,

By which you cherish all that you have made.



All praise be yours, my Lord, through Sister Water,

So useful, lowly, precious, and pure.



All praise be yours, my Lord, through Brother Fire,

Through whom you brighten up the night.

How beautiful he is, how gayl Full of power and strength.



All praise be yours, my Lord, through Sister Earth, our mother,

Who feeds us in her sovereignty and produces

Various fruits and colored flowers and herbs.



All praise be yours, my Lord, through those who grant pardon

For love of you; through those who endure

Sickness and trial.



Happy those who endure in peace,

By you, Most High, they will be crowned.



All praise be yours, my Lord, through Sister Death,

From whose embrace no mortal can escape.

Woe to those who die in mortal sin

Happy those She finds doing your will!

The second death can do no harm to them.



Praise and bless my Lord, and give him thanks,

And serve him with great humility.



--St. Francis of Assisi

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Tomorrow Night Lunar Eclipse

Article here.

Chaos and Clutter

Thermodynamics is a funny subject. The first time you go through it, you don't understand it at all. The second time you go through it, you think you understand it, except for one or two small points. The third time you go through it, you know you don't understand it, but by that time you are so used to it, it doesn't bother you any more.
-- Arnold Sommerfeld

Life is filled with chaos and clutter. The third Law of Thermodynamics would imply that creation itself strives toward complete entropy. Randomness rules. For housework, it means that the interior of my house looks like a tornado just blew through. There is a sea of books on the floor (at least they are in boxes), paper bits everywhere, candy wrappers (Valentine's Day colored this time) and just random stuff. And this is not including the Christmas decorations (boxed up, thank goodness) that are in the foyer. I have had two different people come to the front door and ask if we are in the middle of moving. Sigh.

Here's what I know about clutter: it grows to fill (and overfill) the given space. I even know HOW to deal with clutter: every item has to have a place. And it must be in it's place, or chaos will rule. So the gameplan has been:
  • Find a place for everything and put it in it's place.
  • If there is no place for the item them:
    1. Give it away.
    2. Sell it.
    3. Trash it.


Seems simple, yes? Except there is another axiom: everyone in the house has to be on board with the plan. It is impossible to do this cleaning up of the common spaces without total cooperation from the family. Also, there needs to be communication with what exactly the standards are for a clean common space.

I think we need to do this with our lives, as well: with our time and with our mental energies.

So today, I will be (again) trying to declutter my life. I have to deal with all the stuff in the common spaces today because it's driving me crazy. ¡Adelante!

Saturday, February 16, 2008

Theology of Space

PBJ in the comments of the previous posting says:To have very little would be liberating....but....
what would we do to fill up the emptiness or "lack of". At times I have found myself wanting to be free of something that is taking my time and when I am something else just fills in the space before I know what happened.


Very good observation and one I have made myself. I find myself doing that, as well. Dropping one activity/item and just picking up another. If I had my druthers, I would fill time with only those activities that are 1) positive 2) recharging and 3) constructive as well as the thing that truly must be done because it's part of life (laundry) or part of my Christian witness.

As for things -- I am paring back one level at a time. For instance, I own a lot of china -- maybe 11 sets? And am inheriting more. I am going to look at each set and ask myself some questions: Do I need this? Is this set something of value for me personally (sentimental)? Is there someone I know who can use it or who needs it more than I do? Is this something I can set aside for the children? I've given away one set of china and before this is over, I hope to give away a couple more sets.

And my "Adventures as a Book Owner" -- I probably own 10,000 books right now. 1299 (as of today) are listed on Amazon and I've traded away about 1500, so that brings the total down to about 7200 books. What I've realized: books are really easy to obtain. If I want a book, odds are there is someone out there wanted to sell that exact book, usually used, usually really inexpensive. So I'm continuing in Book Owning Reduction. I hope to own only 5000 books by the end of the year, if not less. The ones I'm keeping: my theological library, my first editions and my Aerospace collection. And that's about it.

Tom DeMarco has this book entitled "Slack: Getting Past Burnout, Busywork, and the Myth of Total Efficiency." Amazon says this:
Another entry in the small but growing management library that suggests purposely slowing down and smelling the roses could actually boost productivity in today's 24/7 world, Tom DeMarco's Slack stands out because it is aimed at "the infernal busyness of the modern workplace." DeMarco writes, "Organizations sometimes become obsessed with efficiency and make themselves so busy that responsiveness and net effectiveness suffer." By intentionally creating downtime, or "slack," management will find a much-needed opportunity to build a "capacity to change" into an otherwise strained enterprise that will help companies respond more successfully to constantly evolving conditions. Focusing specifically on knowledge workers and the environment in which they toil, DeMarco addresses the corporate stress that results from going full-tilt, and offers remedies he thinks will foster growth instead of stagnation. Slack, he contends, is just the thing to nurture the out-of-box thinking required in the 21st century, and within these pages, he makes a strong case for it.

Infernal busyness -- that's not just in the corporate workplace, but in the pastoral workplaces as well. Heck, it our entire life. My tagline yesterday for my Facebook account was a quote from Veggietales:
"I'm so busy, busy, frightfully busy
More than a bumblebee, more than an ant.
Busy, busy, horribly busy
We'd love to help, but we can't!"
Why are we so horribly busy? Because we equate busyness with value or worth. A busy person is worth more. But without "room" in my life for creative and artistic endeavors, I am not fulfilling my God-given purpose; to live into the Imago Dei, the Image of God (the Image of Christ) -- a God who creates and who is "Slack" one full day of creation. I have to make that room; it is not going to happen automatically. I have to clear the space in my daily schedule and not allow anything to fill that space. I HAVE to. Or else, something vital within me may die.

I'm particularly fascinated by the Jesus Sutras because of this: it may bridge into Feng Shui and may help me articulate my "Theology of Space." Space, time, spirituality, intellect, physical placement of things, our physical body: they are all part of the same thing -- God's good creation. Most Christians would automatically shudder at such a concept; most of the ancient Hebrews would understand it. We Christians separate the physical from the spiritual from the intellectual. This is more than vaguely Gnostic to me: it implies a dualism that I am convinced does not truly exist. Spirit IS physical IS intellect; if not of the same essence, then at the least each influences the other strongly. My intellectual and spiritual stress will make me physically ill. My disordered physical environment impinges on my spiritual life. How can it NOT?

DeMarco equates slack with that one space left in a tile puzzle. That "slack" is necessary in the puzzle. Without that space, we cannot ever hope to solve the puzzle. But our infernally busy minds see that space and think, "Ah ha! I can do MORE by just putting in one more thing in my day." But that one more thing locks the puzzle -- leave zero room to move; no wiggle room, no slack, no flexibility.

I am going to learn to be and rejoice in being "Slack."

Tile Puzzles online

Friday, February 15, 2008

Friday Bullets

  • Johnny the Cat (Cat in Black) is ruining my furniture. He's treating the chairs in the living room as scratching posts. Of course, the cat has a scratching post that I've shown him multiple times, rubbed catnip on and so forth, but the forbidden living room chairs are just so much more attractive. So I'm going to have to get slipcovers -- or make them.
  • I found a set of retail racks on FreeCycle. I've got to get ready to have a garage sale here and an estate sale elsewhere this Spring. I'm aiming for April. I hope we make it.
  • I've recycling to do today and bags to take to Goodwill. Amazon packages to prepare and mail. Books to list. Today will be a "do lots of manual labor" day, not a day of thought and reflection. Although I will admit, without the manual labor days, I don't have much to think about and reflect upon.
  • I do wonder today if I own my possessions or if my possessions own me. To have very little would be liberating. Why do we love things that can't love us back?

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Consuming: Cat, Theology and Culture

A reposting of an earlier post (December 2005) vaguely edited.
Seems appropriate for a week where I seem to be blogging about cats, theology and culture.

I watch cats. It’s a cheap form of entertainment and probably healthier than watching TV. I have been honored by the acquaintance with two different cats who are little gluttons – always eating more than they need. Squeaky topped the scales at 25 pounds and Hercules at 31 pounds. When these cats play with wadded up balls of paper, it’s not the little pitter pat of tiny cat feet that drum across the floor, but the thud-thud-thud of baby elephants. I had always been told that animals could regulate their own caloric intake. Why then did these cats get so very large? Why didn’t they know what was enough? Fascinated, I watched them for a while and took a “history.” Squeaky had been lost at one point, slipping away from my father-in-law’s car when they were at the vet. He had a collar and eventually was found and brought home, but not until Squeaky had suffered terrible deprivation – he lost more than half of his body weight until the normal 12-pound cat was 6 pounds. For the next year or two, Squeaky ate. Everything that was placed in his bowl and then he would beg for more. After two years of unlimited food, Squeaky topped the scales at a whopping 25 pounds – twice what he weighed as a normal adult cat and four times what he weighed as a lost waif.

Hercules, on the other hand, has always been large. He was born to an inside kitty and he himself is an inside kitty. His weight as an adolescent was a nice big number, but as he became more spoiled and petted, he began to eat. Again, there were unlimited amounts of food in his food bowl and he was bored. As an indoor cat, he had no prey. Cats are predators. Their essential nature is one of a hunter. To stimulate their body and mind they chase paper balls and milk-cap rings off our gallon milk jugs, but indoor kitties are thwarted. They cannot express their essential nature. They cannot fulfill their God-given purpose. So Hercules ate. Perhaps I am anthropomorphizing the cat, but maybe Hercules is trying to fill the void left by eliminating his routes of expressing his essential nature – his God-given purpose.

Our society is a society of gluttons. We never have enough. We don’t have enough information. We saturate ourselves with CNN, internet news services, newspapers, magazines, periodicals. We purchase every book that is published. We consume information. We never have enough information. We also don’t have enough money. We never stop to consider the essential nature of money – what money is and what it represents in our lives. We are greedy for more – trading away essential parts of our nature for the pursuit of little bits of cold hard cash. We are an overweight society, a self-anesthetized society; drugging ourselves with food, alcohol and drugs both legal and not. We try to fill the void. Some great theologian called this void a “God shaped hole” – I don’t remember who, one day I'll look it up. Some try to fill that hole with a God shaped after their own image – this is the way I think of some Evangelicals and Fundamentalists – and the way I think of some Liberals, too. A God-shaped God might be too radical. A God-shaped God might require more than mere consumption. This sort of God might call for formation and transformation of ourselves. A transformation that is uncomfortable and one that is alien to our society and culture.

A radical God might require radical transformation. Radical is a funny funny word. On one hand it comes from the Latin word “radix” meaning root or source. So a radical God would be a God that is rooted – one that is rooted in creation, rooted in the nature of the universe, rooted in something perhaps we cannot express except in blinding flashes of art or poetry – a God that is truly the source of all that is. On the other hand, radical means departing from the usual or customary. A radical God would require radical transformation. Transformation that is neither usual or customary – a revolutionary change in the way we do business, even the business of doing education and church.

We are a society that over indulges. Squeaky and Hercules occasionally both overindulge to the point to which they vomit. Most of the food they eat comes right back up, mostly unchanged. Moistened a bit, chewed a bit, but unchanged. The little that does make it to their digestive system does become changed. The food becomes transformed into energy for the cat’s bodies, changing the raw elements of the food into raw elements of transformation itself. The food nourishes the cat and becomes transformed into chemicals and sugars that course around in the Cat’s bloodstream, imbuing change in every part of the cat. Fueling the cat, giving the cat life.

We consume. How much of what we consume becomes something that transforms us? How much is spewed back out essentially unchanged? Moistened a bit, chewed up a bit, but unchanged? How much of what we gorge ourselves on is essential to life? How much is not even capable of being digested? Are we filling ourselves up with things that can truly nourish us? What does this mean for those of us who are ministers? What is essential for spiritual growth? What is needed for true transformation of life and spirit? How do we feed our people? Who should we try to feed? What do we feed them? Do we give raw information? Are we facilitators, educators, force-feeders? How do we communicate?

How can a Christian Educator, a Christian Minister or Preacher or Pastor approach the task of Christian Education as transformation? Especially, how can we move our people along this path of spiritual transformation in this age of overindulgence? What shape then is our vocation as we, ourselves, move along this path?

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Jesus Sutras

From the Jesus Sutras:
Many people came to this place to honor John and learn from him. When Jesus arrived, John led the Messiah to the Jordan to be baptized. After the Messiah had bathed and come out of the water, the Cool Wind came from heaven in the form of a dove and landed near the Messiah. A voice from the void spoke: "The Messiah is my son. All the living creatures in the world must obey him. His purpose is to do only good." The Messiah then showed everyone that the way of Heaven was to follow the Lord of Heaven. This meant that all living creatures in the world below must stop serving other gods. As soon as anyone heard these words, they must stop serving other gods, renounce evil and do good.
...

For the sake of all living beings and to show us that a human life is as frail as a candle flame, the Messiah gave his body to these people of unwholesome karma. For the sake of the living in this world, he gave up his life.
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After the Messiah had accepted death, his enemies seized the Messiah and took him to a secluded spot, washed his hair and climbed to "the place of the skulls," which was called Golgotha. They bound him to a pole and placed two highway robbers to the right and left of him. They bound the Messiah to the pole at the time of the fifth watch of the sixth day of fasting. They bound him at dawn and when the sun set in the west the sky became black in all four directions, the earth quaked and the hills trembled. Tombs all over the world opened and the dead came to life. What person can see such a thing and not have faith in the teaching of the scriptures? To give one's life like the Messiah is a mark of great faith.

The Jesus Sutras are a body of work that was discovered in the Mogao cave near a remote Chinese monastery in Dunhuang. This was a place that was near the Northern Silk Road in China -- a very ancient trade route. The earliest dates to 635 CE. They were discovered more than 100 years ago and were recently translated into English (1998). They consist of two different types of literature; doctrinal and liturgical. The doctrinal scrolls reflect Nestorian Christology; a splitting of the person of Christ and is not today considered Orthodox theology. The scrolls contain an early "Harmony of the Gospels" based on Tatican's opus of work.

I find them fascinating. I read them and find them oddly familiar and then strikingly different. I wonder if they just got some of the stories scrambled or if there are idioms that I am missing -- for instance, the details denoting time in the crucifixion account -- and the odd washing of Jesus hair. Is this a scrambling of two different stories?

I find the use of the word "karma" fascinating, as well. From Wikipedia:
It [karma] is usually understood as a sum of all that an individual has done, is currently doing and will do. The results or 'fruits' of actions are called karma-phala. Karma is not about retribution, vengeance, punishment or reward; karma simply deals with what is.
Karma is not a word I would use when discussing Christianity. It is not in my lexicon of orthodox doctrine; yet what other word would do in Chinese? I don't know enough about the language to venture a guess -- maybe there is not a word to describe the word "sinful." Yet its use here makes me think and ponder. The image of a the fragility of a candle flame is beautiful -- so easily is human life blow out. The candle flame gives light, but a small flickering light and this small light cannot hope to illumine the world. Yet all of our candles shining together -- that would be a beautiful sight.

The stories of Jesus presented here are not of a deeply developed theology; they have a beautiful "folk-tale" quality. Were these stories, as garbled as they are, sufficient? Do they contain the "Gospel in a nutshell?" Perhaps -- they knew enough to call this new religion "The Religion of Light." It is an awesome and powerful thing to think of these Taoist Christian fourteen hundred years ago struggling to find the words to express the Gospel in a way their culture would understand. I respect that struggle.

Vernacular

Etymology:
Latin vernaculus native, from verna slave born in the master's house, native

And how is it that every one of us is hearing their words in the language which was ours from our birth? -- Acts 2:8

I've been thinking a lot about putting things in the vernacular -- in language that will communicate in "spirit and truth." I was amused by the LOLBible yesterday -- bits are really funny; like Luke 2
Oh hai, Jebus iz bornd

1 'Roun dis tiyem, Caesar Augustus wuz like, "I can has cenzus?"2 ('Coz while Quirinius was Teh Boz of Syria, is invisible census!)3 And all teh doodz went home for teh saying, "I is heer!"4 So Joseph went from Naz'reth to Judeeah to Bethlehemm whar David wuz bornededed, 'coz David wuz hiz graete-graete gran-daddie,5 An Mary went wif him, 'coz she was gonna be married wif him an she was preggerz.6 When wuz time for teh baybee,7 it wuz a boy, so he wuz wrapd in blanket like burrito an placd him in fud dish, cuz innkeeper wuz liek, no room here kthxbye!
It reminds me of the Valley Speak Bible of 20 years ago ... a placing of a sacred text into a very "common" tongue. Some people think it is profane. I certainly wouldn't use it in the pulpit or for serious study, but it does cause me to pause and think about the text. Some would place Petersen's "The Message" in this category, but I don't know about that. RLP has a really funny video where a "King James Only" pastor preaches an entire sermon based on a particular way of translating a phrase from the Hebrew Scriptures -- specifically the way KJV uses the phrase "he who pisseth against the wall" verses the NRSV "male."

Certain congregational contexts probably would not tolerate the LOLBible very well; to appreciate things like this takes some room and flexibility. Could something as silly as the LOLBible lead to true transformation of heart and life? Could something like the LOLBible communicate the heart of the Gospel?

The portion that I quoted yesterday contains what some call the "Gospel in a nutshell" -- John 3:16. Is there enough contained in that nutshell and in that translation for transformation? Luther claimed that the Gospel in a nutshell was that Jesus "is the Son of God who became man for us, that he died, he was raised and that he has been established Lord over all of us." Can something as silly as the LOLBible communicate that?

I've long wanted to do a documentary on the history of the English Bible. The Vulgate was translated early on by Jerome, but it was centuries before the Bible was translated into any vernacular language. There are debates about why this is so. Some say that the message was too precious to be entrusted to the vernacular. Some say that by keeping it in Latin (by then an archaic language), anpriest could "control" the gospel and subsequent interpretation and application. Until the printing press, having the Gospel in the vernacular wasn't that important. I have recently read a book that traces the history of the English versions; it was a bloody and controversial thing. We still fight over what translation to use.

Alongside these ponderings, I've also been reading "The Jesus Sutras" by Martin Palmer. I realized that Christianity spread down the Silk Road in the 6th century AD; I didn't realize that it left footprints. The Sutras are interesting in that they reflect a significant portion of what we would consider orthodox thought; but they also reflect influences from Asian cultures and religions. Some would claim that the Gospel is "despoiled" by these influences. However, have WE not despoiled the Gospel in the same manner? Is not our version of the Christian faith just as contaminated by European culture and mythology?

The LOLBible is just the latest of a long history of contextualizations. Somehow I believe that the Gospel itself is self-correcting. And who knows? Maybe someone reading the LOLBible will hear the Gospel with fresh ears -- and actually HEAR it for the first time. Stranger things have happened....

Edited: Oh my goodness! Thanks to JWD, I have now ordered the Manga Bible! (One note: it opens the wrong way....)

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

John 3:1-17; Lent 2A; LOLBible Translation

John 3:1-17

1 Naow dis guy Nicoteneus iz a lvl 64 Pharisee and leeds teh Je\/\/s.2 He comez to teh Jesus in teh nites and he sez "We knoes u comez frum teh Ceiling Cat and we knoes u pwn."

3 An Jesus sed, "Ceiling Cat has invisible haus, u gots 2 borned agen 2 see it."

4 Nicoteneus sez, "D00d! How doez dat werk?"

5 Jesus sez, "is da truth, u hafta be born agen wif waterz an spiritz an stuffs.6 Flesh givez birf 2 flesh, but teh spirit gives birf to spirit, k?7 Y r u so konfoozled?8 Is lyke wind, it doz its own stufs an u dunno how it werks, but is all ok, amirite? Is like that!"

9 Nicoteneus sez, "I doez not get it." :(

10 "Den ur not gud teecher," sed Jesus. "Lez flame tnak his b4se!"11 "Ok, iz da twoof. We says sum stuff dat we sawed, and teh peeplez is still konfoozled.12 I ben talkin bout teh stuffs on urf and ur still lyke, 'whut?' so whut bout Ceiling an stuffs?13 I iz da only wan whos gone to Heaven so u haves 2 trusts me, mkay?14 I gots 2 b lifteded up lyke Moses an his snakedy thingy,15 coz if u beleeves ur not gon be ded! Eternal lifes, u can has it!

16 So liek teh Ceiling Cat lieks teh ppl lots and he sez 'Oh hai I givez u me only kitteh and ifs u beleevs in him u wont evr diez no moar, k?'17 Cuz teh Ceiling Cat not snd hiz son 2 take all yur cookies, but so u cud maek moar cookies 4EVAR!

LOLBible





Monday, February 11, 2008

A Reflection on Cats

Funny Pictures
moar funny pictures

Funny thing about cats. Johnny Cat is in the bedroom prison -- and not wanting to escape. It seems that he's scared of Old Woman Cat. Old Woman Cat is definitely not taken with him -- she's actually drawn blood. Johnny has a nice big gash on his face that abscessed and drained; not pretty. He's scared to death of her. Of course, Old Woman Cat likes the kitten food and has discovered that we keep a nice big bowl of it in our bathroom. So she digs under the bedroom door until she can open it (really need to adjust that strikeplate; too easy to open) and then chows down. Of course, the kitten food is going to kill her -- too much protein and salts.

Somehow, this all reminds me of church. (Big surprise, right? My husband tells me that I look for theological meaning in everything. He may be right.) It's the "older members of the church" vs. "the young whippersnappers" dilemma. Those who want to change vs. those who want everything to remain exactly the same. We've had multiple cats before; we even have integrated new cats in an existing cat household. It can work. They even ate from the same bowls and I was able to find a food that would nourish them both. But I am wondering if that is the exception rather than the rule. How do you integrate a young active cat into a household that has a grumpy old kitty? I've done it by enforcing very rigid boundaries. Is that what it takes? Boundaries and patience? They are finally almost able to tolerate each other's presence in a room; Johnny is wandering the halls. I use a little kitten food to "flavor" the old lady food and both seem to enjoy it. Johnny is growing and I am supplementing his diet with vitamin "crunchies." It's probably too much to hope that one day they will nest together -- but I can hope. Of course I'm an idealistic optimist. It's my greatest strength -- and my greatest downfall.

I could just give up, I suppose. There are certain people in the household who LIKE to see them fight; who pick sides and root for their side. "Yeah, Johnny! Get her across the face!" In fact, I think sometimes that's our basic human nature. But it's not going to lead to peace in the household. I think I will then just remain faithful and patient. Watching and waiting for the Kingdom.

And, by the way, I don't think I was talking about cats here.

Friday, February 08, 2008

Ash Wednesday

I burn the palms from last year
A year gone with its dreams.
Burnt offerings to a God who tells me today
Ashes to Ashes, Dust to Dust

The brazier is warm from the fire called down
Which consumes and I wonder what fire is really
What is it that can change hope and joy to ash?
Charity and comfort to soot and smoke?

Broken promises, harsh words, betrayed trust
All part of this broken bit of creation
Fractured and pieced together,
The bits and pieces creating a mosaic of beauty, but not completeness.

The body of Christ has been rent and torn
Dismembered by its own limbs
Joints wrenched from their sockets
Bruised and Dislocated

Are my dreams but chimera?
Illusion, pipe dreams that smoke
An expectation of prospects that cannot be?
Or are they the substance that makes my life worth living?

Still, I will be obedient.
Hoping that in obedience there is comfort
Lessons to be learned,
Reconcilations to forge.

I look forward to that day of reconciliation
Where fire cleanses and the fire forges
Where the touch of a coal will purify
And the dross of self will be burned away.

But today, I wait.
The smoke, flame and heat pace me
The silence that never is really silent will be my voice
The stillness will be my friend

Today in obedience, I will wait
And the ash will mark me, branding me with the imprint of my own sin.
The blemish of the cross will stain me
And the weight of that cross will sustain me.

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

Picture 22 of 365 for 2008 -- Shift in Perspective


This was one of the "decorations" on our Christmas tree this year. Sometime after Christmas, the kids noticed that the tree was covered with hundreds of little baby preying mantis. We left the tree up for a while as their "habitat" and didn't take it outside until it looked as if they finished hatching.

Entropy told us, "God decorated our tree!" This statement is an example of what we call "Entropy-isms." I don't remember all of them. I probably should write them down as they occur. Last year she got in trouble at school when she took her hands and put them on either side of a kid's face and turned it away from her. When asked, she said, "But that's where the noise was coming from." Yesterday, she told me, "I want to live in a trailer park because trailer park kitties are SO BEAUTIFUL."

She has such a different perspective on life. Maybe that's one of the things Jesus meant when he said, "Let the little children come unto me" and "unless you are as a child, you cannot enter into the Kingdom of God." Maybe we need to shift our perspective and not see preying mantis on a Christmas tree as pests to kill with bug spray, but God's own decoration. Maybe we need to not vilify trailer parks as bastions of poverty, but see them as a place where there are really beautiful kitty cats. She honestly believes that those kitties are a blessing. A shift in perspective.

Snow White Test



I just took the "Snow White Test" to see what personality type I am in meetings and (big surprise!) I'm "Happy."

Here are some of the characteristics:

Some Strengths which Happy may exhibit in a Group Meeting:
  • Happy is very likable, warm, and energetic
  • Happys are supportive of the leader, group members, and task at hand
  • Happy responds quickly to request from leader to do an exercise or help out
  • Happy promptly completes any assignments given
  • Happy nods affirmatively and expresses positive interest
Happy-dwarf people are people persons - they love people. They are warmly interested in others and tend to watch, listen and pick up specific, detailed information about others. They want to like people, and have a special skill at bringing out the best in others. They are extremely good at reading others, and understanding their point of view. Happy's strong desire to be liked and to maintain a pleasant environment makes him highly supportive of others. People like to be around Happy, because he has a special gift of invariably making people feel good about themselves.
Nothing I really didn't know already...
=o)

Monday, February 04, 2008

Monday Bullets

  • My internet is all flakey again today. It's been flakey for a while -- Just found out that I missed some email messages. My ISP was taken over by another company and I knew that there would be some difficulty during the transition, but I really get frustrated by missed email messages. I would switch to an online generic service, but I'm afraid some of those database are a little to open for me -- that they are "search-able." So I'll stick to the flakey service for a while longer and see if it clears up.
  • Because of the flakey service, I dropped out half-way through a lectionary study I was leading on Second Life. I'm sure they understand because others have dropped out halfway through as well, but it just as I was getting to the good part, where I tie it all together in a flash of brilliance. (Not really. But there is always hope for that!)
  • And I also missed my self-imposed deadline for shipping out today's packages; I couldn't get online to get my postage printed out. I guess I'll have to actually go to the Post Office to do it. Haven't done that in weeks.
  • I've received dozens of phone calls today from people soliciting votes for tomorrow. I'm tired of it. Don't call me -- it's guaranteed to backfire on you. I've a list now of people I'm NOT going to vote for.
  • I've started to work again in the garage. I've kept the dishwasher and washer and dryer going today. I'm trying to reclaim two boxes of towels/bedspreads/sheets from my husband's grandparent's house. It's good to see how yellowed and dusty old bedspreads bleach out and clean up so nicely.
  • There was an avalanche in the garage near the books listed on Amazon. It's funny -- I deal with sorting and getting rid of stuff here in the house, sorting and getting rid of stuff in the LH's grandparent's house and sorting and getting rid of stuff at church. Same task; different places. It echoes my own internal "clean-up."

Just down the road a bit

Just down the road a bit, a few neighborhoods away, a young man of 18 beat his adopted mother and father to death on Friday. No one knows why -- he's been arrested and will be tried as an adult. In another state and another town, another young man killed his parents, as well. And in another state, a man killed several people in a shooting associated with a robbery. In a way, I can understand the motivation of this last killer better than I can understand young men killing their parents.

This first young man's Dad was an associate principal for a school I actually attended many years ago. I can imagine the ride there, the layout of the building. I saw their house on the news -- it looks to be in a neighborhood like mine, in a house that my family could be living in. What causes this? I see it as evil -- where does this evil that contaminated this young one come from?

This is not the first time that something like this has had me befuzzled. Early in my teaching career, I had a student kill his next door neighbor, stabbing her dozens of times. He was caught as he returned to the scene to retrieve a part of his own finger that he had cut off. Where does this evil come from?

Today I think of all of these young people and their families.

Note: This is posting 1350. Interesting. I didn't think that I had that much to say. =o)

Sunday, February 03, 2008

Four People Died

Four people died last night -- homeless people. They didn't have a place to stay and they basically died of exposure. I'm sitting in my nice suburban house, warm and fed, preparing to go to my nice warm church while there are four people, two men and two women, all over 50, whose cold bodies are now laid out in a cold morgue refrigerator.

I'm not feeling warm and fuzzy right now.

From Monk and Neagle:
Nowhere to live, nowhere to fall
he used to have money, but he’s wasted it all.
His face is a photograph burned in my mind,
but I pretend not to see him for the twenty-first time

He sleeps under stars, that’s all he can afford
His blanket's an old coat he’s had since the war
He stands on the corner of Carter and Vine
But I pretend not to see him for the twenty-first time

He may be a drifter, he’s grown old and gray
But what if he’s Jesus and I walk away?
I say I’m the body and drink of the wine
but I pretend not to see him for the twenty-first time

She’s twenty-nine but she feels forty-eight
She can’t raise three kids on minimum wage
She’s cryin’ in back of the welfare line
but I pretend not to see her for the twenty-first time

She may be a stranger tryin’ to get through the day
but what if it’s Jesus and i walk away?
I say I’m the body and drink of the wine
but I pretend not to see her for the twenty-first time

This is a call for a change in my heart
I realize that I’ve not been doin’ my part
when I needed a Savior, I found it in Him
He gave to me, now I’ll give back to them

Drifter or stranger, father or son
I’ll look for Jesus in every one
’cause I am the body and drink of the wine
and I’m thankful there’s more than the twenty-first time


Friday, February 01, 2008

Things That Make Me Happy -- Friday Edition

And for which I am grateful.
  • Friends at choir who share my love and enthusiasm for music.
  • My accompanist who is also a friend.
  • Hot tea with lemon. (Or tea with cream. NEVER hot tea with lemon and cream.)
  • Ecclesiastes and John.
  • Star Trek episodes in the afternoon.
  • Being able to play music anywhere I am -- iPod, CD's, really kickin' speakers in the living room.
  • Microwave ovens.
  • Clean panties. (This is for Mindy)
  • Long hot soaks in the bathtub.
  • Books. Any and all.
  • Glass and other sparkly things.
I think this is my last day to do this. I've needed an attitude adjustment and this has helped. This time of year can be such a downer; there seems to be no end in sight. Gray moods; gray skies. The trees are a study of gray and black trace-work on a gray sky; even the little birds that are wintering over are gray. The world today seems to me to be a study in shades of gray. But it occurs to me that black and white are sometimes harsh colors; gray is soft. I think of Lent being the "gray" season -- I know that the official liturgical color is purple, but I think gray suits me better. Gray is the color of the ashes. I can't believe Ash Wednesday is next week! Time to prepare for Lent. The traditional thing is to "give something up" for Lent. I'm thinking rather of "taking something on" instead. What? I don't know yet. I'm thinking.